THE REASON WHY

I totally gave up on it.
I knew I looked like her and I moved on stage the way she did. I studied her make-up and her gestures-even her mannerisms.

It was 2012,and it was the biggest gig of my life. I wore the outfit that I had made, inspired by one of her performances back in 2008 at GMA (Good Morning America). 

I stood on the stage and pe"Gagita" being mistaken as the other Lady Gaga impersonator.
rformed her hits but it seemed to me that all I had from the audience was ridicule and a bunch of insults. I was even called
It was devastating for me. I didn't just put on a wig and said,

 "HEY, PEOPLE! WATCH ME DANCE TO LADY GAGA'S SONG. I'M LADY GAGA BY THE WAY. BELIEVE ME!"

NO. I believed in it more than other people did. I studied her for years- her music, art and principles came down not only to my brain but also deep in my heart, that if it was taken from me, I will die.

It was like breathing. 

When I stepped on stage, I felt like I was her. even when I went off the stage.

But in the eyes of many people,  I was just an impersonator. Just a person who mimics Lady Gaga or Lady GAGITA. I was like, "What the fuck, I am a musician-dancer-singer-song-writer turned into an impersonator and then you have mistaken me for being that other impersonator?" I know I was better than him. I never lip-sync and even the piano stunts she does, I studied. I was even mistaken on Youtube as the real Gaga, it was just I wasn't famous, and I'm just an impersonator, whom in the eyes of the people, impersonating Gaga, and the one that also impersonates her.

FUCK!

So I gave up.

But something was there inside me. Something magical. I don't know what it is but because of impersonating Lady Gaga, and all those hours of watching her concerts listening to her interviews, I found myself.
I found my own sound, my own art and vision.
Fuck impersonation. I found my performance.

Now, when I stepped on stage, I still feel like I was her - along with that, I felt like Edith Piaf. Barbara. Liza. Prince. Gloria Estefan...because of her, I felt like I could be anybody.