We Always Reach For The Sky

Taken last 2009 @ the over pass in Banaue, Q.ave

We are so stressed right now.
When will I ever blog about something extraordinary?

Thesis.
Fucking modules.
Fucking time.
Fucking dilemma.

We barely have fun already.
We are so overwhelmed...but we like it! That's the funny part.

Last 2009, me and Poch are ranting rascals on the streets. Looking for a place to stay, drink liquor and have fun...in uniform. But those days are gone. LOL We are now haunted by our irresponsibility and by our never ending pride. Time sure ticked so fast, and we are left with nothing but sawdust and a bunch of skeletons.

@ Pau Casi's house for a little drunkee drunkee.

SKELETONS OF THE PAST.
Meinna. I wonder what happened to her. I mean, what really happened. I'm just dumbfounded to see things change soooooo fast....like clockwork.
Soon enough she's going to be a mother, and I wish nothing but all the best for her and her decisions.

WE MAKE OUR OWN LIVES.

And now, we face it...like a mirror. We see ourselves, and what's inside us.

Pau, me, & Meinna

When I look at these photos...I can't help but smile and frown at the same time. I miss my innocence at things. I miss the world around me then. It was quite full of colors and cute things and laughter and children...now that we know so many things about life and teenagers...now that we are at the edge of becoming 20...looking back is sad.
Yesterday, I was quite in a state of boredom, that I never realized that Poch was reviewing for her test...and I kept on bothering her. Suddenly I missed laughing at very childish and non-sense things...

Before, when you ask us about teens...a picture we see is a group of teenagers jumping in vintage colors....slow motion and pop corns flying...streamers and everything. Now it's just SEX SEX DRUGS DRUGS ALCOHOL loneliness and belonging. Looking for that window when all of the doors are closed.
Crying yourself to sleep, because you think that life is so complicated. You can't get a grip.
So I always pray and hope for the best.
WE CAN DO THIS.
NO ONE CAN BRING US DOWN!
And I want to tell those bitches that rant on  my decisions and all those who think I'm a weak person.
NO. I'm a strong person.

...and we always reach for the sky.

Did you eat a bowl of stupid for breakfast?

Ohhhhh yeah. Tired after a very long day at school. 
Done doing Poch's Diary. :D

Hmmm. A while ago, I was surprised to see my buddy, Bren, at school already!! YAY.
So....he really looked stupid. He didn't know what to do. He didn't know where to go.
So I guided him and made a little orientation for him.
AREN'T THE TEACHERS SUPPOSED TO DO THAT? Whatever.
So we had so much to talk about and since Poch wasn't there yet...and Angel, too...
Bren pulled me to Geometry class.


(APPLAUSE)

Yes, I encountered my fear.
I did Geometry...and it was quite easy, and fun!

Poch came before lunch and when the bell rang, we ate BIG TIME.
Whhhooo! Ang sarap kumain ng bonggang bongels!
After eating, I went straight to the water fountain. I was surprised by Bren's reaction...
"Hey! How did that happen! The water came out!" 
And I was like.....SAY WHAT?
THEN...HE TOUCHED HIS LIPS TO THE FOUNTAIN. 
With the puzzled look on his face...he asked me, "Why is the water not coming out? This is an automatic water fountain...is it?"
And I bursted into laughter. HAHAHAHAHAHA

EPIC.

OF COURSE YOU HAVE TO STEP ON THAT PEDAL OR WHATEVER THEY CALL IT! HAHAHA whew. super funny. like hell.
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Anyways...as I have blogged yesterday, RULES ARE IMPLENTED. And yes...it's Bitchin'.
So it's goodbye freedom and hello absurd discipline. Ridiculous, actually.

Yes, we are celebrating with cigarettes, baby!

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We ate shit today.

We ate shit today.
We went to school early today, and I forgot about the SLO (Student Life Office) Orientation.
THE SAME OLD RULES AND REGULATIONS.
How we hate these days, when the head of the SLO speaks funny English. He made us laugh with his stupid grammar, and he kept on doing it.

It was 2:00 in the afternoon and we were expecting that the orientation was done, when he announced that there will be a quick election for the very first officers of HSP.

YAY. SO MUCH FUN, I WANNA PUKE.

First, the President was elected...and followed by the sucking bitches of Home Study Program.
I don't wanna mention their names and I am not bullying. 
We just hate how mean and plastic they are, that's why we made fun of the election. We voted on other people but no matter how hard we tried....Yeah, they won the positions.
Imagine Regina George, Karen Smith and Gretchen Wieners in the respective positions of President, vice-president and secretary. Like f*ckin A.

We thought we ate shit just because of the SLO Orientation... that in return, ate our time...INSTEAD OF UPDATING. We were wrong. We ate shit and belched it out...and ate it again. 


Hope tomorrow's different.


:| straight face. 


Now I'm gonna effin' smoke while showing my tattoos. Now how's that for you. mister?


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This moment for life.

With Poch and Angel @ the HSP.

Racing with time. Like in the movies, it's stressful and frustrating.


Stressful...
Modules are getting harder than before. Feeling uneasy every time we flip a page.
Frustrating...
People who underestimate us. People who don't care.

WE DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

We never thought high school would be this hard. We all started in a traditional class. We never expected to be home schooled freaks. But that doesn't mean you will underestimate us!

 In this type of life we have...we need someone to care. A friend...who we can turn to at the end of the day. But instead, we get a bunch of misfits, jerks and backstabbers. 

I DON'T F*CKING CARE. I WILL LIVE THIS MOMENT FOR LIFE. 
BECAUSE I HAVE YOU GUYS :) @POCHPERNITO & @DARLINGANGEL


We are the ones who understand each other. Kung sino pa ang expect mong iintindi sa'yo...yun pa ang masakit magsalita at MANGINSULTO.


#thismomentforlife


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Lashes=GLAMOUR!

WE STILL HAVE FUN.

by the way...that's poch and me :))

Lady Gaga Reveals The Details Of Her New Perfume "Fame"

Perfume isn't the easiest thing to promote. It more or less speaks for itself once people smell it. Of course there is something to be said about the celebrity who is selling it, and how that relates to the amount of bottles being sold, but the longevity undoubtedly comes down to how good the perfume smells.

Lady Gaga has finally revealed not only how her new perfume "Fame" smells but also how the bottle looks.  Designed in collaboration with SHOWstudio's Nick Knight, the bottle is a basic oval shape with what almost looks like a gold claw adorning the top. The perfume is said to be the first black perfume that sprays on clear so that it won't damage your clothing.

The actual scent has been described as smelling like everything from "blood and semen" to an "expensive hooker."

According the the press release:

Lady Gaga Fame is the first ever black eau de parfum that sprays clear and becomes invisible once airborne. The black-to-clear fragrance is a fantastic innovation of patent pending fluid technology, exclusively launched with Lady Gaga Fame ...The innovations in Lady Gaga Fame go beyond the black-to-clear fluid: The olfactory structure itself is also very rare for the fragrance industry. Traditionally, perfumes have a pyramidal structure — a hierarchy of sorts with top, middle and base notes.

This fragrance, on the other hand, has a unique structure called the "push-pull" technology, where the ingredients interact together to highlight different olfactive aspects of each note at the same time, without any hierarchy. All of the notes were crated to work together harmoniously thanks to the complimentary properties of each ingredient, which allow for a true metamorphosis of the scent when worn on skin.

The scent is built around three main accords: dark, sensual, and light. The dark accord was inspired by Belladonna, the deadly nightshade possessed by haunted beauties since the 18th century. From this darkness, the fragrance evolves to a sensual accord of opulence, a fusion of dripping honey, saffron, and apricot nectar. And lastly, the light accord whispers magnificence. The rich floral layer of crushed tiger orchid & jasmine sambac embodies timeless beauty. The accords work together to create a fragrance of floral and fruity elements, with the star ingredient inspired by Belladonna leveling out the whole fragrance and giving Lady Gaga Fame its signature as a scent.

source: globalgrind.com

Fuck you from Lady Gaga and me.

Frustrated this week. Pressure from school and other people. I always told myself to ignore these people who do nothing but let me down! BUT I CAN'T!

I see them everyday of my life, and I can't seem to dodge! It's like you'll need a dose of "Valum" everyday!

School. The number one stressful place for a teenager. Personally, I am stressed because of the modules I have to study. Take note: SELF STUDY. Imagine Chemistry+Math !

It could have been easier if some of the teachers are considerate and understanding. WE ARE ARTISTS AND DEGENERATE REBELS, that's why we are home schooled. We are Bad Kids, and we hustle! So don't underestimate us!



When you get home, you are surrounded by scum sucking neighbors. 

They question me with their looks...

"Aren't you supposed to be college already?"

"Why are you still in high school??"

"WHY ARE YOU HOME SCHOOLED?"

Why do u care about my shit anyways? You f*cked up retards stay out of my life!!

Number one enemy.

 In this blog post (and for the next posts that you will be in..) I shall name you...."The Ice Queen".

 This bitch throw icy looks at me every single day of my life. Well I can't blame her after wrecking her shit a few months ago. I'm just not that type of HOMO who will sit and watch people treat me like a piece of cigarette. A SUCKED UP, THROWN KICKED AND STEPPED ON CIGARETTE. No bitch, stop bitchin'. You ain't seen the last of me yet....and I tell you I'm one hell of a rider. A SICK PUNK ASS RIDER WHO'S GONNA RUN OVER YOUR FAT ASSED BACK! 

and you're gonna wake up on a sunny morning with legs achin'. Limpin' within the walls of a cheap hospital and see a big FUCK YOU FROM LADY GAGA AND ME.
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Middle Finger

T.G.I.F.! Yes, baby, thank God!
After a week of tiring days at school, I am faced with not just big responsibilities but also big  FRUSTRATIONS!
We HSP (Home Study Program) Students, we work hard just to get that effin' Filipino dream,. To finish studies.
And as HSP students, we expect no help from anybody except from ourselves and facilitators.

HMMMM.

Some facilitators, I thank you for understanding and helping us in our modules. Thank you so much, I owe you a lot. You don't just push us, you give us strength and inspiration.
BUT to those who torture us, I hope you realize how we work our asses off.

We wake up realizing we've done a lot of irresponsible things in our lives that we find out that we barely have a month to finish our modules, BUT PLEASE! Huwag ninyo naman kaming i-down. We don't need much! We just want to finish this black hole we entered!
IKAW. Yes ikaw. Two items nalang....pinapaulit mo pa? Nakailang na kaming nagtatake....isang item na lang....bakit hindi mo pa ituro sa estudyante?

Mahirap maga-aral magisa. Imagine chemistry and math all by yourself!

Hayyys. Whatever. Babalik din sa iyo ang ginagawa mong karumaldumal sa aming mga estudyante!

And here we are....still working and hoping to finish this shit we pay for thousands.

Elton John Fears Lady Gaga's Health

Elton John fears Lady Gaga’s non-stop schedule will take its toll on her health.
He admits he worries about the “frail” 26-year-old pop star, who is godmother to his son Zachary, as she travels for her Born This Way Ball tour.
“I look at Gaga and I think, ‘How does she do it?’ I talk to her mum and dad about it. They worry,” contactmusic.com quoted John as saying.
“She is frail, and she doesn’t eat when she should do, and she’s a girl, and it’s tougher for a girl. She works really hard. She will be in Denmark one night and Saudi Arabia the next. I know how tiny she is and I do worry about her, yes,” he added.


Sorce: ladygagaph

Torn?

"Once a group all together
Now is lost, gone forever

Fighting and lies tore us apart
Now there's a hole in the middle of my heart

We loved each other
We were like sisters and brothers
Sisters and brothers have to fight
But in the end they see the light
Doesn't that mean once again we'll be together
Or will we be gone lost forever...

-Stepha Lee 

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So.. there's something wrong with me and my friends. Seems like we're disconnected.

I wonder if we will all be friends til we get old, or til we have jobs or something. We have gone through so much. Heartbreaks, hardships and joy. 

But, all of a sudden, everyone seems busy. It's not that we seek each other's attention. It's just sometimes, it feels like a lame excuse.

We were inseparable. But now it just looks like another rusty wire. It breaks apart.

Bea. 

Quite insecure, she just don't want o admit it. Sometimes she's so full of herself, she can't hold on.

Josua.

What's wrong with you nowadays?  You give us icy looks. You throw painful words. I hope you realize that we have feelings and egos. We are not you emotional slave. Why do we have to adjust to your feelings? Kaya nga kami nandito eh. Kaya nga tayo magkakaibigan. But for you to judge us. That's a different story. Minsan nakakasakit ka ng hindi mo alam. Iniisip mo lang sarili mo.

But I understand both of you.
And if you ever read this, which you may judge as a backstabbing post, I DON'T CARE. 

This is how I feel. 

And I sometimes wonder why I can't tell it straight to your faces. Maybe I just don't want to hurt your feelings. Maybe, I'm scared. Scared that you'll be mad at me, and seeing myself with no friends like you...i don't know. I just can't live life without you guys, but if it's like this? I don't think It's gonna work out. 

Truth is, I've been dying to post the truth. 
And the truth? We've been backstabbing for the past months. Bea talks to me about josua. And I talk to her with the same problem. Josua then talks to me about Bea's shit. And I also complain. I wonder what the both of you...Josua and Bea, have been talking about me...whenever I turn my back. Hmmm...


We used to be so in sync. 
I wonder what's happening.




Are we confused? 
Frustrated?
Lonely?
Mad?
Whatever it is, it's tearing us apart.






I miss my best friends. :(

Back to school, and some stressful-surreal surprises.

"First day of high school is a surreal blur.

 A stressful-surreal blur."

-Lindsay Lohan, Mean Girls, 2003

Well it's not really my first day. I just want it to sound like it's my first day in school! Haha...you know, home schooled freaks...we have an irregular schedule...so it's not really first day. What's interesting though, is the "stressful-surreal blur" I saw from the faces of the new students. How puzzled they sure are! Can't help but remember my very first time in Angelicum College. HAHA

Anywayssss....so I was walking along the corridors...was really hurrying. I have kept my two friends, Poch and Angel waiting for like 4 hours already. And we haven't seen each other for so long during vacation. We missed some laughs and gossip. Well, those are the things going on my min d while I was hurrying....suddenly...I saw a guy...who has a very lazy and familiar walk...and hair.
Then I looked at his face.

Then I thought, "Hmm, is he...no, he can't be..."

And then I looked at him for the second time....very confused.
It was Bren!!!

After all the issues that happened between him and his girlfriend and his parents and with Bea, I didn't expect to see him there! Well, you see people in the least expected places, ika nga.

So I was like surprised! I asked him why he was there...and he told me he's taking an entrance exam. So yeah, he will be a home schooled freak like me. Like us.

Now isn't that fun?? Haha, I can't explain the feeling! Bren and I have been friends, and we are so close. We know things about each other and we're BAD KIDS, BABY!

So I was laughing hysterically to see him there, and discovering that he will be my classmate! This is so funny. I didn't expect that.
He dropped out of school so he really needs this home study program. Well, good luck to US!



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So, it's goodbye MOHAWK. Oh sh*t.

Modules. Here they a re again. We have a lot to do this year. Poch, Angel and I, decided to group ourselves for thesis.

And, topic?

PREMARITAL SEX.

DRUGS.

ALCOHOL.

TEENAGE PREGNANCY.

Exciting and yet...so hard. I can't even imagine it. :))